I have realized that when I am upset and angry, I get rebellious. I want to be naughty. I don’t know if it is just the brat in me, or if it stems from being a teenager and not having that rebellious stage? but when I am angry, I want to throw things, or bite people.
It makes it worse when it is my Dom who makes me angry. If I am upset at him for something, I want to push back. I want to deliberately break a rule.
Of course, it depends on the cause for my anger. If I was told no and upset about it, I might say “no” or push back, but I will still obey. If you fall asleep on me in the middle of an important conversation or ignore something I said, I will probably tell you that I am going to break a rule: “I am going pee” instead of asking. But most of the time I will wait for acknowledgment before actually doing it.
However, if you really make me angry .. for example, if you fall asleep while I am cumming, or if you ignore me over a longer period of time, I will just break a rule.
I hate that I act this way, but I can’t help it. Even if I am aware of it, it is too hard to stop it.
Maybe this just makes me immature or a bad sub … or maybe it is just one of my weird quirks!
Does anybody else do this? or is it just me?